Khloe Kardashian was aged 19 when her father Robert Kardashian succumbed to cancer
Khloe Kardashian Open Up About Emotional Impact of Her Dad’s Death. Khloe Kardashian remembers the grudge she held against her late father over his sudden death.
The reality star, 40, made some heartbreaking confessions on a recent episode of her Khloé in Wonderland podcast about the death of her father, Robert Kardashian, in 2003.
The Kardashian star began by recalling how Robert died of esophageal cancer “six or seven weeks after he was diagnosed.”
I don’t think he was lying to us, I don’t think he could accept to himself that it was terminal, but he never used those words with us. So I just thought, ‘Oh, if I don’t see it, it’s not real,’” Khloe told grief expert and author David Kessler.
The podcaster noted that she was only 19 and needed to “hold someone accountable” for the loss, so she took that anger out on her late father.
“I, at 19, got involved with my friends, and when he died, I remember feeling guilty about not spending more time with him, but then that guilt turned into anger, because then I was like, I need to blame someone, so I’m going to blame my dad, because he didn’t tell me it was terminal.”
“In my mind, I rationalized it. If he had told me, I would have shown up more,” the reality star continued.
Khloé, who is now a mother of two young children, shared that she now gives both herself and her father some grace given the complicated situation. “I don’t know if I would,” she admitted. “I just dealt with his passing the best way I knew how.”
She admitted to now being “completely at peace” after her father’s death, adding that she owed it to a producer on Season 1 of Keeping Up with the Kardashians for pushing her to talk about Robert during an interview.
“For about three years I was incredibly angry and I was filming my show Keeping Up with the Kardashians, and on Season 1, I remember one of my producers forced me to do an interview about my dad, because I wouldn’t talk about my dad, because at that point if I talked about him I would break down.”
Khloe recalled being “so angry at that producer.” She told Kessler, “I was like, why are they putting me in this dark room and talking about something I don’t want to talk about?”
Khloé is the parent of a daughter, 7, and son Tatum, 2, both of whom she shares with her ex Tristan Thompson.
